Had no sickness at all - guess I've been one of the lucky ones! Only things I have are bigger boobs and an expanding waistline. And a massive appetite.
My mum.. upset me, I guess.. she rang up and said she wanted to make me "aware" that this child "will" be autistic, and that I wont cope because it'll be a "disabled mum looking after a disabled child". So I didn't speak to her for three weeks. Just because I have Aspergers, and so does Zac, it doesn't mean the likelihood is concrete that our child will be autistic in any way. It's a higher percentage, sure, but it's not definite. And two dilute cases don't make a concentrated one - doesn't work like that! What upset me most of all was that she doesn't think I'll be able to cope, and this is coming from the person who is supposed to know me more than I know myself. I, for one, think I'll be a great mum simply because of my Aspergers - I wont get emotionally overwhelmed, worrying that my baby hates me because I can't stop it crying, because I can switch off emotion like a tap. I'm certainly not likely to just leave it in the middle of the street and walk off because it's crying too much. And if it does end up being on the spectrum, I would know first hand how to deal with that. And so would Zac. So she's talking out of her backside, and I don't want to subject my child to a family who will just watch it playing with blocks or something and go "aww, it's a shame isn't it".. UGH that would make me so mad, and I would be likely to leave on the spot.
When I did end up speaking to her again, I explained that I was going to give my dad a scan copy, and she went off on one going "oh he treated you like crap when you were little" - that's right Mum, when *I* was little. This one isn't even born yet, I have to give him a chance. And if he does mess up, then cut all ties, but I want to have a Grandad for my baby. And it's not like he's going to be seeing it all the time, unless he makes the effort to come to me. As my mum doesn't, it's entirely up to her when she gets to see her grandchild. I'm not going to be constantly travelling. It's not fair on me, Zac, or the baby.
Well that was a bit of a long rant. Anyway, I'm really looking forward to this, despite my mum's nay-saying!!